Can you still hear me?

A man who had a little too much to drink is driving home from the city one night, and of course, his car is weaving all over the road.  
A cop pulls him over. "So," says the cop to the driver, "where have ya been?"
"Why, I've been to the pub of course," slurs the drunk.
"Well," says the cop, "it looks like you've had quite a few to drink this evening."
"I did all right," the drunk says with a smile.
The cop says, "Sir, do you realize that your wife fell out of the car several miles back?"
"Oh, thank heavens," sighs the drunk. "For a minute there, I thought I'd gone deaf"!

As I read this joke I died laughing visualizing the action.  I then reflected on this joke and it seemed to bring me to think about God.  This year has been a rough year for me.  I found myself in the beginning of this year in a very, dark lonely place.  Trying to break away from a toxic relationship and learn once again how to truly and genuinely "love" myself.  Start healing and embracing the person who I was.  I began a process of acknowledging that God made me a wonderful woman with many wonderful attributes.  I had to stop placing blame on myself for a failed relationship.  I started building up what was tore down (self esteem, self worth, respect, pride).  Yet, I knew I couldn't do it ALL alone!  But, unfortunately it had been some time since I had fallen off the back seat of the car.  It had been a while since I truly, consistently tried to speak to God and give Him ALL my fears, sorrows, pains and troubles.  It had been some time that I could honestly say I was holding tight to His hand clasping it with no thought of letting go. How was it that I could have anticipated a better life, a blessed and drama free life.  How was it that I could expect God to send me "Real" Mary J Blige Love, "I've got your  back" Love; if I've allowed myself  for Him to think that He's gone deaf and that I've fallen out of the car.

 We say yes I'm willing for you to guide me and get me to where YOU want me to be, lift me up Jesus, but where is the endurance?  Where is the effort of communicating daily with Him, seeking Him, loving Him and letting Him know "I'm present, I'm ready".  If I didn't realize that I had lost sight and realize that I had disconnected myself from Him I think that the blessings that later came into my life this year and the joy that I felt in Him listening to my pleas and granting me a "new" renewed life wouldn't have come into play. As you reflect on your relationship with the MOST High, Jesus.  As you decide to be decipher what your "new year" resolutions will be.  I believe the "most" important question should be does God think He's gone deaf ? What am I doing to ensure that He's able to hear me?  Grab tight, hold on, don't let go, speak to His Heart and 2012 will bring you much more than what you bargained for.